Raitoningu
This is Raitoningu Farron... or in english it would be Lighting Farron.... She's really cool! Hahahahaha.. Not really my fav character, but's she's damn cool. And the game is pretty good, even if I actually will feel much much much happier if it just as traditional as the old FF games. FFXIII looks too much................. futuristic.... but the scene play and the art is amazing, really... :Pthis pic is totally credited to maybetomorrow07.deviantart.com
thankyou for a massively beautiful pic... :)
Sei-kun looked up to me, his brown eyes look puzzled.
"What kind of impossible?" he asked.
"the most impossible thing beyond the impossible."
"Your words are confusing."
"Well," I said. "Do you believe it or not?"
Sei-kun shuggred his shoulder. "Cant imagine, but I could always try. What kind of impossible you want me to believe in?"
Comfort
i would simply call it "CHAOS".
why? Because it IS such a CHAOTIC week. Here and there, print this and that, learn this and that... so many assignments, report, tasks, writeen exam like I could barely feel myself.
so practically my eyes would look like this : @.@
not to mention other problems.
like skating. This basic move........ i just couldnt get the gist of it.
oh and I havent start the Japanese class just yet... probably round next week, for this time, i'm kinda grateful... i NEED ALL my free time to finish tasks. what a life...
but there's always a sanctuary on time like this... :P
Look at how comfortable he is! I took the image from deefordisaster.deviantart.com.. nice capture! :P
The point i put this lovely kitty here?
because it's a CAT!
Haahahahahhaa...
.................er. okay. sorry.
my point is, I have a very very very comfortable sanctuary on all these times. see, last June 19th i celebrated my 2 yrs anniversary... YAAAY...!!!
xD
it's a night full of evaluation, laughters and love i guess. So it's been 2yrs already, feels just like yesterday for me.... we had dinner at Waroeng Gumati, Bogor and it was such an amazing place.... It has a beautiful view at night... and actually i almost dont care where I am as long as i know who i am with.... :)
so yeah, that is a power booster for busy weeks ahead...
i pray for my survival at psychology and an everlasting love and comfort like this..
wish me luck with Psychometry test today! See ya around...
You need to grow up, that's a matter of fact. But you don't have to push yourself way too hard when you know it's not time yet to grow up. Let it be. Maturity is a natural process. Friends are there for you. They help you through this transition. Lean on them, open yourself, let them hug you. Because friends are stars at night, not always seen up there, but they always be there. They watch over you, they protect you.
But this?
Ai imagined, she might go through any reason. Any reason Eric gave her. But not like this. One day you closed your eyes, went to sleep, still talked to him half an hour ago, and woke up the next day only to find he just vanished. Vanished. No news, no words, nothing. Just a black hole went deeper and deeper, wider and wider, as you went through day by day, try to accept the fact that he left without any word.
Eric. Eric. Eric. Eric. Eric.
Why? Why? Why? Why??
For a moment there, Ai thought she just might've lose her sanity. She laughed upon her sweet memories, and broke down when it came to reality.
"I had an argument with him." Ai stared blankly to the park.
"You always had an argument with him." Sei sat beside her. After a long silence, Sei finally spoke up. "You don't have to do this you know." Sei touched her chin.
"Do what?" Ai asked. Her eyes were already teary.
"Talking about him."
Ai breathed deeply. "I want to." For a moment when she breathed deeply, Ai let her heart hoped Eric would just popped in of nowhere. For a moment, Ai wished it was Eric who sat by her side. "It's his birthday anyway." Ai stood up.
A Quiet Night
Lately I've been so busy with everything. Not only college projects (which are definitely killing me now). I've been busy with skating as well, and the volunteer work I've been doing for this past 10 weeks in a village area in Tangerang
, and also been busy with this and that committee assessment at campus... aaaand.... while doing that i want to manage a quality time with A like watch movie or just hang around at my house...
and have i mention yet...? Practically next week I'
ll be starting Japanese class. Hey, don't judge me wrong folks. I DO know how busy things here, and I DO know it sounds so unwise to add a Japanese class at time like this, but I need this class to apply for the scholarship next year. And I love Japan. :P
see...? So i'm like... i don't have much time for myself. So..... being alone like this.... it is really comforting. You just listen. Listen to the rain, listen how quiet a night could be... somehow it feels... i feels so okay.
Of course, actually there's nothing okay. I messed up with skating class. Coach J said that this move i'm desperately learning is actually a very basic move which i have to master completely. And it is really DIFFICULT. i think i just messed up. i think others don't need so much time to learn this basic movement like i do.
i also messed up with my class. I had a "D" for a class in mid test. I gotta work my butt off for final, otherwise i am more than dead.
I messed up with my feelings. sometimes, out of nowhere, i feel so guilty for nothing. The other times, i feel so excited. I'm kinda trapped in the feeling of could-it-be-a-bipolar-disorder as a result of me learning Abnormal Psy
chology this semester, and the feeling of could-it-be-a-normal-teenager-syndrome as a result of A endlessly told me that i am still a little kid. or a unstable teenager, whatever.
so, yeah. life's been weird, messed up here and there, still at nightfall like this...
i kinda feel..... okay.
you know, when you've been living a very fast-pace life like mine, you would appreciate more the moment of being "alone"...
so, thankyou Lord... for giving me a very quiet night like this.
for giving me time, to recognize myself.
for a promise that everything is fine... :)
oh. and i miss
so much.
XD
see ya around folks...
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