The Friends Who Sat With Me Back Then

October.

We only have 2 months left and the year of 2013 will end. It is really amazing what time can do to us, human.

And it is also really amazing to see how people around me really start walking paths of their dreams, go to places they wanted to see and struggling to learn skills and abilities they wanted to master.

Four years ago, I would sat on my Statistic class weeping about why a degree of freedom has so much to do with the shape of a statistical curve or something like that. I would find my girls then, out of frustration, and watch good movies and have some good food and laugh endlessly. 
But now, the very same girls, are running towards their dreams. Some still stumbled here and there, trying to recognize what they really want to do with life. But, they're moving.

Friends that sat with me on a basketball court at junior high talking about their first kiss experiences or how the 1st period exam was a total nonsense have grown so much, that it is almost hard to believe we were so little back then talking about funny things that were not too funny 9 years ago.. things that meant the world to us... those same people are on their way to be the top managers of an international company. Or on their way to solve unemployment by opening their own business line, on their way to become the best chef in the world, or on their way to open their own restaurant just because they like their life to be that way.

Friends that grow with me through high school have chosen their way too. Some of them are expecting a child, anxious, but happily building a family. Some of them wanted a higher education and thus preparing essays, english tests, and other things they need for a place at Boston while keep working to make sure their hands always find something useful to do. 

It is so amazing, to look around and realized that we.... are so growing up.
We really are, aren't we?

Me too. I want to run to my dreams too!


Climb a Mountain, Climb It.


I probably should warn you first that this will be a very long post. Please, bear with me. :P

I knew that Indonesia is the biggest archipelago country in the world and I am very well aware that we have at least 17,000 islands and almost 7,000 among them are unnamed. Talk about primitive civilization. Yeah. How can Jakarta stand so tall with buildings and shopping malls that almost turn this city into a giant olympic size pool on raining season whereas 7,000 islands dont even have names.

I am also aware that Indonesia, without doubt is one of the richest country, judging from the size and the natural resources it has. And no, I'm not talking about gold or oil, that is so centuries ago, I'm talking about the uranium. Turns out Indonesia has somewhat rich savings of uranium, one of the nuclear power plant energy, which is, obviously expensive. Well, Indonesia is also a very beautiful country that you can just close your eyes, point any random place at a map, go there and find fascinating things. Including natural scene and landscapes, festival, languages (241 in total to exlpore!), tradition, custom, folktales, music and so on. I don't believe you can get bored here. And as far as I know, no one has ever explore the whole 17,000 islands of Indonesia completely yet, witnessing their land, sea, and people's uniqueness. I think it'll be great to be able to do that, someday.

So, fascinated by this idea, I did some research and was surprised, if it was not shocked, actually, that Indonesia is also very well known as...... the most volcanic country in the world. I'll tell you what does it mean. It means at least 16% of the world's most active volcanoes are located here in Indonesia, and that is huge! It also means that there are 129 volcanoes here and at least 83 of them are active (means it will, someday, erupted). The Pacific Ring of Fire, which occurred at the basin of Pacific Ocean circles Indonesia's territory completely, like literally there is no single island in Indonesia that is free of Pacific Ring of Fire volcanoes. One of those volcanoes, Mount Tambora in Sumbawa island erupted in 1815 and set a global climate anomalies called a six year volcanic winter over Northern America and European countries. That included snowfalls in June and also mid-summer frost over New York.

Will you look at that. I didn't know any of these facts before, except for the Pacific Ring of Fire because it was really famous. So I started wondering, what do they look like, the mountains and volcanoes, if I were to see them from a very close distance. In my simple mind, I thought that I might as well visited those volcanoes before they erupted, so someone will also remember their beauty and glory. Because personally I think mountain is a peaceful place, fresh with a lot of trees and flowers and also give a mysterious sense in some way.

Thinking of this I go asked Cindy (who has some experiences climbing mountains) about all sort of mountain climbing things and ta-daaa! It was decided that we will climb a mountain as my 23rd birthday project. I always wanted to do something different with my birthday, so since this is something new and different, I was really really excited. Cindy told me about this mountain, called Mount Gede located near Bogor city, outside of Jakarta. She told me that Mount Gede has beautiful waterfalls, magnificent forest and also a 50 hectare of Edelweiss ground and it was easily accessible from Jakarta. 

And so it was decided. To Mount Gede we go!




By standard local rules, you can not climb Mount Gede with less than 3 people in your group. When I asked why, Cindy told me that if something wrong were to happen to one person, the other two will be able to back each other up. If the group only consisted of two people and one of them is suddenly injured, they they will be done for. Cindy kept talking about safety procedures and I was listening to her that time, but wondered what could possibly go wrong because we were just climbing a very famous mountain (I imagined then there will be a lot of climbers, hikers, campers and so on... so no need to worry, you won't be alone anyway), right?

no, WRONG.
Never think of a mountain as "just a mountain", and stop underestimating the power of nature, people, please. 
Whether you travel with someone so experienced in mountain climbing before, be it there is a guide who helps you pointing the way, be it you walk with your best friends whom you can trust your life with, the mountain will still test you.
I started the journey of climbing a mountain for the first time of my life believing that this will be a group journey, something you do happily because you have your good friends with you. But then upon completing the journey, I realize that it was actually a very private and individual journey, it was.

So, I went with Cindy and Veli, and was almost sure that the climb would be a fun climbing-outdoor-activities for three days. We took a bus trip of around 3,5 hours leaving Jakarta for Bogor. Veli and I mostly sleeping in turn, Cindy probably was too nervous about 4 pm deadline to take our permission papers at the downhill of Mount Gede so she didn't sleep, perhaps. But we finally got there, taking with us our huge luggage (super heavy) and spent the night at Montana Basecamp, because we are scheduled to start our climbing the next morning around 5.00 am.
Sleep was fine, I shared a sleeping bag with Amanda, the girlfriend of one of the Montana's boys and use it as a blanket for both of us. The next morning, I was really sleepy but excited as I washed my face (The water was ridicolously cold. What was that? Ice-cold water?) and pick my carrier. We had some quick breakfast (tuna and egg sandwich) and saying our goodbyes and start to walk towards the forest around probably 5.20. 

Among the very first resting posts was this beautiful bridge, that stands between the thick forest to a small clearings where the view of Mount Pangrango could be clearly seen. Of so many things I remember upon taking so many pictures on this bridge were:

1. (while gazing at the faraway Mount Pangrango) Are we seriously going to climb to the top of a mountain like that? In two days??

2. (while staring at the far end of the bridge) This bridge is so beautiful, so easy to reach I can't stop imagining that this is the oasis for the upcoming storm and obstacles.

Cindy was mostly silent all the time. Probably she was remembering a dear friend she used to climb this mountain with. Probably she was just letting Veli and I, the totally clueless beginner to enjoy the view, the sun shines and the winds because she knew it was not an easy road ahead.
Mount Gede is the second highest mountain in West Java. It is 2.958 meters, or around 9,000 ft, approximately. Last eruption was on 1957 and she just stood there without any significant activities up until now. You can climb Mount Gede through two tracks. The first track, and this was the track the three of us (and one guide) took this time. It is called Cibodas track and was said to be the easiest way to climb the mountain (I can't be 100% agree, but I've never walked the other track, so what do I know? :P). The second track is called Gunung Putri track and according to Cindy, there is nothing that make sense about that track. The rocks and the roads are too tiring to walk and somehow it looks like it has been designed that way by nature to act as training ground for forest rangers and not exactly the track you took for pleasure and sight-seeing purposes.
 Translation: common human like Veli and I were advised to just take the Cibodas track.
Anyways the Gunung Putri track was actually closed for some maintenance during our time of climbing so as curious as I was, we had no choice but to travel through the Cibodas track.

It was such a trip, considering we cooked open-air, although they are mainly simple food (soup, noodles), but this was the first time I ever cooked in a forest! It was amazing because I think that this is not exactly something I do on, say, regular basis.
Plus, the forest made of so many different trees and floras and home to different birds and other animals. I managed to see one or two squirrels, and some birds of course, but did not see much of other animals though. The wood of the trees have different roughness, some of them are sooo soft like it's been polished or something. I touched here and I touched there and I remember feeling so grateful for the hands of God that painted these. 

The climb to the top of the mountain....... I don't know how to explain that in words. It was really an up and down journey. It was extremely tiring. We started out on usual pace but slowly, as the journey goes on we move even slower than before. I was dead tired, but I thought that me above everyone else has no single right to complain that my legs are failing on me, or that my backs feel like it's going to break anytime soon, or that i think my chest are going to explode in no time, or that I constantly need to pee pee but no way I constantly doing that in the bushes of the forest, I dont have any right to complain. Why, I made the others do this. I dragged them to comply with my selfish wish of celebrating a birthday different significantly from my previous birthdays. So I tried to cheer everyone up, just... try to cheer them up. I do think God walked with me through that forest. It is as if He lent me pair of wings that lifted me up so I could survive the hard rocks and roads and keep my spirit high.




We arrived at a resting post where naturally people especially beginner will camp out there before continuing their journey in the morning. This post is called Kandang Badak (please, don't ask me to translate that. Haha. 
... Fine. It's Rhino's Den... lair... cage, something.. See? I told you not to ask. Haha.. xD) allright, so we sat for a while, discussing what would be best to do. Cindy said that she would like to continue through, but she needed us to share her luggage. Given the situation that her back is not as strong as before, she probably should've ask earlier for us to do this. anyways, we shared her luggage, and continued our journey.
But then when the night comes, I was really really tired, I felt like I could not move anymore. Veli was there (because Cindy was already ahead) and offered her hands every single time. She whispered words like "you are strong." and "you are amazing."
See, I did not expect that climbing a mountain will be this hard. It is amazing to think now that when we climbed that day, maybe it's the mountain, maybe it's ourselves, but we push ourselves pass our limit. All I think was that if we don't make it to the next post, it will be really cold, really dark, and no flat grounds to build our tent, and that means trouble.
So then you rely to other people too. For spirit, for helping hands, for kind words. You rely to your team in terms of believing that you can do this. And you have to do this, to finish the journey.

I think, climbing a mountain looks so much alike with our journey in life. We walked with families, friends, and they helped us along the way. But in the end, this is YOUR journey. You decide. You fight with yourself inside, you talked inside your heart, you have mental conversation with yourself, you try to assure yourself, you reach to God, you wished a lot of things probably without letting any of these out of your mouth. You push yourself. The journey will take you to beautiful oasis, through the waterfalls, beautiful scenes, with the smell of the grass and the soil, and sometimes you walked in fairly flat ground.
But sometimes... it becomes too hard to walk. The climb is tiring, you can not feel your legs anymore. Probably your arms and fingers are bleeding -- hurt, maybe. You needed a rest. You can rest as long as you want, but by resting, you are not moving anywhere. You can feel tired and you can camped out, but if you quit and stop the climbing, you will miss the best part of the top view. You will miss the glory of the sun shines, the heat that slowly warm your body up, replacing the cold wind of the dawn. You will miss the magnificent view of the cloud beneath your feet, cloud never felt that close before, believe me. If you quit, you don't get to see these.
Don't you think it is quite similar with your journey in life?
The mountain shows you, you know. It shows you who you are, when you are away from all the privileges of your comfort food, bed and bathroom. It shows you who you really are, when confronted with problems and tiredness. It shows you how you feel and react to life. It shows you, it does.

When we finally got so close to the top of the mountain, we decided to stop and along with some campers, we camped out there. By this time, I was mute. I was cold, I could not remember why in the first place I wanted to do this and I just could not think of anything. Cindy and Veli cooked some warm soups, and I helped with easy jobs. After that we discussed our plan tomorrow. So the idea is to climb to the top of the mountain and watch sun rise, and then we'll have quick breakfast and start our journey to climb down the mountain rightaway. The Edelweiss ground is on the other side of the mountain and requires us to climb to the top, go down slightly to reach the Edelweiss Ground and since the Gunung Putri track is closed we have to climb back to the top and climb down through Cibodas side. Which, will be too tiring, so we decided to skip that. It's too bad, thinking that we've made it this far and who knows when we will be able to come back again, but... well it was the best thing to do considering time and energy we had left.

So this is the view from the top of Mount Gede, the very first mountain I climbed.




Cindy was actually acrophobic, so i adore her devotion and determination to come along, through and through (because she could actually chose to stay in the tent) to the highest point at Mount Gede. Although she probably had other thing to do beside accompanying me, still, she has been so nice so kind, she has been... a friend to me. Thank you, I'm glad we did the journey together.
What did I feel? Mostly it was relief. That we made it here, it's done. And then come the grateful feelings, the view was astonishing, the sun looks dazzling and the crate was scary (what? hahaha), the crates look mighty and while looking down below thinking I probably would not want to go down there, our guide told me, "these crates are one of the favorite spot for researchers"

Me: Researchers? What researchers? *could not believe anyone would go down there. Man, are they for real?*
Guide: You know, the usual.
Me: Who?
Guide: Brave vulcanologist, and those who study the earthquake thingy, what were they called?
Me: Geologist. They went down there? Like... down there? *pointing to the crates*
Guide: *calmly nods*
Me: ...
Guide: Some brave final year geology and vulcanology students too, sometimes.
Me: God bless them.
Guide: ...
Me: Can I go down there too? Now?
Guide: God bless you.




 This is the crate in question 
and for a better look


Fine. I didn't get to the crates, all right. It looks great though, the view from the top. Because the crates standing side by side with, I don't know, green hills or something. So it was a contrast view but beautiful nonetheless. And the longer we lingered there, the sun starts to come up, making it even warmer and you can see your surroundings pretty clearly. The greens, blues and white combinations was absolutely lovely. It almost has something magical about it, the colors, the scenery, everything. And to my sudden surprise, the narrow road we took this morning... it turns out to be.... a narrow road with ravines and crates on each of the side of the road. We literally could just slipped and fell and........

I was petrified. And asked my guide, "Sir, this was the road we took this morning?" and my guide give a big nod, as if he knows what I meant by that. Because it was pitch black at 4.30 am I did not realize the road was.... was.......... pretty much dangerous. The picture on your left, that is the road I'm talking about. On the right side of the road you can see a fence and on your left side, haha, it's just small plants and bushes. *so grateful i'm alive, so grateful i'm alive*



I think I left my mouth open without saying anything because then Cindy looked at me as if she was ready to eat me alive and said, "Why, on earth, do you think I was trembling and could barely walk to the top??"
Cindy, I am so sorry you felt that way. Acrophobia sucks, I know. But girl, I was trying to process the reality that I could have just slipped hours ago, because I was almost dancing while walking that road thinking we'll be on the top of the mountain within minutes. I was dancing! I am so grateful I came home safely and am writing this right now. *breathe in, breathe out, i'm fine and allright* damn, I was dancing there!! So dangerous.

Veli, although very much silent, still looked quite comfortable and enjoyed her view of the scenery. I think probably, she too, had her own personal monologue upon reaching the top of the mountain and seeing all the beautiful landscapes. Cindy was barely able to walk. First it is because of the height, obviously. Second, it's because of the cold. She looked like she was going to freeze to death so I gave her my white coat, hoping that she will feel better.


Anyways,  before we headed back, I opened my birthday card from Aloince (at this point neither Cindy nor Veli had said "happy birthday!!" to me just yet) and I found this:


I think she meant it as a joke. She could not possibly think that I do look like a..... that was a joke right? RIGHT??
Hahahahaha... anyways I don't mind, the card was cute afterall. Hahahahha.. thanks Aloince, I heart you!

I think the most magnificent view is when the sun rises. First the rays of light illuminating the east part of the sky and it slowly spread to the west and finally the sun comes up waaay behind the series of mountains and shoo away all the fogs. Here are some of the pictures of the sun rise and the splendid mountain-top areas:











So after that we just go back to our campsite and start preparing for another journey. Yap, the journey home, climbing down the mountain again. I seriously thought it will be easier, because, it is simple physic right, it is not like climbing, we were heading down the mountain, the gravity should help us (what kind of theory is that xD).
Turns out, it was as hard as the journey up. Because this time you already saw the top of the mountain, you are so very tired, when you climb down you have to manage to hold your weight on your feet and your luggage, even if it was reduced, it was still heavy. Your only motivation was home, good bath, warm place, good food. We walked and walked and walked and walked. At some point I got blisters on my foot and heel and I needed to go as fast as I could and sit down for a while, using the time Cindy and Veli needed to catch up with me to rest. Because when I walked slowly my blisters were killing me. I totally understand now why small cuts hurt deeper.
When we went passed the hot springs and waterfalls, we came across this small spring, with warm water that feels so good to put your feet in. Our guide told us to take a rest here, and take a quite long rest, he said something about the heavy journey without rest ahead. Little did I know that this was..... Cindy and Veli's grand plan for my birthday: to drown me in that warm spring!
....
Exaggerating, sorry. I was not really drowning, no, but they did manage to push me into the spring, leaving me wet from head to toe, and it was freakin cold, you know? Hahahhaha...Cindy and Veli should very well make a mental note that revenge comes fast and comes sweeter. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

Well then when all the fun was over, I changed my clothes and we continued our journey. Soon it was dark and raining and we almost had no energy left to walk. At this point people are getting very sensitive, unconsciously using harsh tones, very hungry, the road was slippery and everyone was easily irritated. Along this journey I have seen my friends weakest time, and they too, have seen me on my weakest. To feel your friends' weight on you, emotionally and physically, in a dark and rainy forests... that was such an experience. You literally have to transfer what you have left inside you to them. Share your very last ounce of positive emotion... you feel weak yourself, but seeing them weaker, you know you have to be strong. You don't know how, but you just have to.

Because they had been strong for you. Because if they could they will do it again for you.

Cindy and Veli are amazingly strong girls. They are stronger then they think they are. They are faithful and they are true friends.
That, was the last lesson from Mount Gede.

By the time we reached the base camp it was already 6.30 pm. I didn't know what to feel, but I was so proud. So proud of the Lord, so proud of my friends, so proud of myself.
I tried to keep my mood high, to cheer everybody up, but probably that time it didn't work at all. Because deep in my heart I was reflecting on so many things and not all of them were good things. But I do know one thing, the mountain, it teaches you a lot.


When I told this story to Crystal, she said, "life is hard enough, I don't need to face its replica too by climbing a mountain."
Hahahahha.. so true. I feel her, really. But if you ask me, climb a mountain. Climb it. Even if it is just for once in your life, climb it. You will go back to flat grounds as a different person, with different point of view, different things to think about. And you will, for sure, love your friends more. At least it works that way for me, in the time when I was not expecting any kind of lesson at all. So climb a mountain, climb it.

You ask me why I dwell in the green moun­tain;
I smile and make no reply for my heart is free of care.
As the peach-blossom flows down stream and is gone into the unknown,
I have a world apart that is not among men.
(Green Mountain, Li Bai)


The Good Coffee, and What I've Been Up To

These days, I have been reconnected once again with someone from the past. Someone, who for a long time hold my being, my purpose, my dreams.
To think about it, he was the one who called the hard decision. I was simply accepting. I did not understand well that time but was too tired to question.

The only thing that makes me keep thinking is about how different this person has become in the past two years. He just suddenly popped up with different attitude, different way of speaking, different... face. Everything is different. And I feel like, I don't know this person anymore.

I used to think that there are certain things that are just meant to be. But clearly, that is not the case between me and this person. Still, I think that people who shared some piece of lifetime will remain connected through it. I just dont understand how time could... bring massive changes in someone else's life.

There are also people around me who warned me about being connected again with this particular person. I understand their good deed. But I wonder, if they too, understand that I need to believe that it was right to follow what my heart says.

But then again. Sometimes the head has to take control of our heart, yeah, yeah.

Well then enough with the sentimental posts! Let's move on to the happy ones!! Firstly allow me to fill in some updates on what I've been up to these days, on my long hiatus (4 months! FOUR months. Forgive me).

Theses
The theses. I am trying to working on it as joyfully as I can. I always think that theses should be an exciting project. You know, given that it is the biggest project to sum up your four, five or.. well to sum up your bittersweet university era. It should be your winning project, something you left as a legacy to your university. If you're lucky enough you can even use it for future reference. But as fun as it seems, it is undoubtedly quite stressful, especially when my good friends are having kind of rough time working on theirs.

So yeah, I have been working on mine for sometime now. I am writing about teenagers that sexually abuse others. Mm-hm. I guess the topic has explain itself clearly. I am writing about the juvenile sex offenders and I want to write about their heart. About what they feel, about what they think why they do what they did, not about what we, as the public, or me as a psychology student think of why they did that.

I hope that by the time I finished my theses, I will understand more and I can help other people to understand more. I hope that the professors who will test me out on theses defense would, for a brief of time, forget that they were there to A-B-C-D-E-me on my papers and presentation, but rather they were there genuinely to listen on what I found in the field. And I hope that they will be the best professors the university can provide me related to the topic, so that maybe, just maybe, what the research found will get to the people who have broader access to use the information, so that the theses in turn will be more useful than just another test I have to sit to get my degree.


Work
The school of Psychology wants everyone to do an internship period before we graduated, just so everyone has a glimpse of idea of how a working life would look like out there. So, I'm currently doing my internship with an international non-governmental organization called ChildFund and I assisted a project officer for Early Childhood Development for two months and then just recently transferred to Child Protection department under the same NGO. 

My work with ECD took me to have a closer look to early childhood education system in Indonesia, and I can't say that it is a good one. But efforts have been made to improve the system and I got a lot of insight and more things to think about before I went to sleep every night and I'm grateful for the chance given to me to learn. My work with CP still revolved around helping out to translate surveys and documents important for CP work with youth around certain locations, but I think by the end of this month there will be other works to be done too.

Then, I'm also taking part teaching at local children day care, Lovely Sunshine Daycare and assisting their corporate in-house program. The corporate in-house program provides daycare services for parents working in the corresponding offices and they can leave their children attended and well cared for while they're working. We do exercises and also art and craft classes, games and of course there are plenty of free play times.

I do enjoy the work at Lovely Sunshine! It brings back the memories of working for Wee Pee in Japan. Turns out kids are kids after all, wherever they are. :) Sure it is not an easy job, because you have to be responsible to whatever happen inside the daycare facilities, but the reward of having them learn and play a lot in a manner in which they are enabled to grow maximally way more than if they're left at home washed away the tiredness after working for 9 hours.



The Coffee (finally *giggle*)
So that's about all. Oh, oh, oh, and the work at Lovely Sunshine was even more exciting because I'm working with my friends, Dee and Pingkan. It was utterly exciting having them around, knowing that we can count on each other to make sure the daycare runs smoothly everyday. After our training Cindy and I (Pingkan was not there, too bad) was walking to the nearest TransJakarta shelter when we spot this homey coffee shop called The Goedkoop. You maybe can guess from the name, they are a Netherlands-inspired coffee shop, they even wrote their menus in Dutch!

At first Dee was reluctant, but since we really needed a good coffee and a place to sit for a while, we decided to come in. The interior was rather vintage inside, the kind I really liked when I would want to sit for a long time. The staffs were very friendly and greeted us happily. They handed the menu to us and explained that most of the menu was intended to be shared, that is, one portion would be a little bit too big for one person. They have a range of coffee and frappes and toast and pancakes, but since we just ate and was still full, we skipped the 'share menu' and I ordered a latte and Cindy ordered some earl grey tea for her and also a plate of poffertjes to bite on.



Food was okay, the latte was delicious. The poffertjes were a little too sweet for me though. And.. well I didnt taste the tea (not a big fan of earl greys) but Cindy was not complaining (which is very rare, since she's a hard critic on food and drinks) so I'll guess that the tea was fine too. Hahaha.. 



In my opinion the Goedkoop is a good place but it's a little bit pricey. I would comeback for their pancakes and their famous Bon Bon Koffie someday, but maybe not in the near time.
But, if you're curious and have some spare money to spend for coffee, you can visit them here:







The Goedkoop
Jl. Bendungan Hilir Raya No. 26, Jakarta
+62215734420
Monday-Friday 10.00 - 22.00
Saturday 07.00 - 23.00
Sunday 07.00 - 18.00
@GoedkoopJKT


Seven Things I Will Always Miss About Japan

Okay. Call this a sentimental post. This post is written in response to:

1. One of my good friend, who happened to be a Japanese, and who happened to spend his 10 days of  spring break here in Indonesia went home a month ago (sigh), leaving me missing Japan even more.
2. My home university happened to be so actively involved in maintaining friendship with KUIS (my uni in Japan) so they sent five of my juniors off to experience a two week spring course at KUIS. That, leaves me so miserable because I can't help feeling so envious.
3. I basically always miss Japan.

You can't stay at a place for a year without forming certain bond and felt attached to that place pretty strongly. At least in my case, I can't. I love my family, my friends, my life here and everything, but being in Japan -- as Jude said, is like living my dream. Being in Japan has brought so many new experiences and form so many good memories and at certain times it feels more painful than it usually is to accept the fact that I am no longer staying there.
So, I figure out that if I manage to write things about Japan, maybe just maybe, it'll ease the longing feeling a bit. Then here it goes, seven things I will always and forever miss about Japan!

#1 The Four Seasons

What? Don't give me that look. I haven't been in another country with four seasons before and I experienced all those four seasons for the fist time in Japan. I miss that.

I miss the smell of spring. Flowers will literally bloom everywhere and there is no way you can miss it when spring really comes. Beside the sight of the famous sakura or cherry blossom, you'll know it's spring by the smell. And spring smells sooo nice.
When the Sakura's blooming, it only means one thing: Hanami!! Hanami literally translates to viewing (mi = viewing, looking ) the flower (hana = flower). It's an activity where people, families or friends or colleagues would sit together usually under a sakura tree and eat together, talk, drink alcohol (yeah! yeaah!), singing out loud or just simply adoring the beauty of Japan's most famous flower. Here's a picture of sakura tree in my uni and a Hanami we did that time. We were on school ground so no alcohol whatsoever and I guarantee everyone was sober enough to attend the next class. LOL. It was such a good time!!

Then it gets a little hot in summer, but summer means beaches and fireworks and watermelons and it was so great having everyone gather to hang out together. It's utterly HOT, that's true. But still, happy nevertheless.
When we are not so busy playing fireworks at the beach, Rini, Ho and I usually go to Fujiya, one of the well-known family restaurant in Japan and indulged ourselves with the marvelously delicious Fujiya Parfait! Those sweet little babies are definitely a survival kit to face summer in Japan! *grin*


When Autumn approaches, we have a loott of good things to enjoy. The leaves started to change colors, and the view was simply amazing. Whether you take a walk down the Meiji Jingu temple or take a day trip to Nikkou, the colors are just amazing. Autumn is chilly, and I remember that the food somehow tasted better,
Then here comes the winter. I experience the cold of winter both in Chiba, where the snow falls down as a frost, like pieces of ice falling down from the sky and also winter in Hokkaido, where the snow was more like a powdered snow, you can throw your friends with nice balls of snow and start a snow fight, build a snowman or simply just look at the stunning beauty of city covered in soft snow. Hokkaido looks almost like a... yuki-onna's (the snow girl, a ghost in traditional folklore in Japan) country of residence.
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I'm kidding! There was no yuki-onna or ghosts alike involved. Hahahahha.. it was just because Hokkaido was entirely and literally covered in snow, it was freakin cold but it was beautiful indeed! I got -9C for the lowest temperature and, people, it's freezing. I'm a tropical girl, what was I supposed to do in a yuki-onna's place? I really can't believe what Aloince, Jenni and Jonne's going through with -30 in Finland. I'm gonna die.

One of my friend took Japanese Literature as her major and she told me a very interesting thing about the four season and how it is related to Japanese's attitude. Japanese are well known for their ganbaru spirit. I can't find exact translation for ganbaru, but it is a spirit that push yourself to your limit, sometimes even exceeds your limit. That each time you fall, you push yourself to get up. Each time you do something, you push yourself to give it your all, your best shot. My friend said that one of the reason why Japanese are so strong is because they stay in a place with four changing seasons and their country located geographically in an unstable climate and prone to earthquake and other natural disaster. Japan is a natural magnet for earthquake and tsunami, for goodness' sake. But been going through that disasters time and time again, Japanese are strong. Staying in a country with four seasons and experience them in a year trains you to be strong. And I miss that, always and will forever be.

#2 Nihongo

Have I ever told you that Nihongo (Japanese) is a fascinating language? You know, you can learn about a country's culture by studying its language. Learn Nihongo, and you will be able to experience Japanese unique culture and understand a little bit more about its people's general characteristics. It is amazing because this probably is not something native Japanese will realize. But as a foreigner I learn the root of the language and it's crystal clearly explaining who Japanese truly are.

First of all, by learning Nihongo you will come to realize that Japanese are polite and they are the most unselfish human beings ever walk the earth. They will always think of someone else's sake first. They seek for harmony, living in peace with their friends and neighbors, respect others' privacy and try their best not to stick their nose unto someone else's bussiness.
Secondly, most of them are very reserved, they are not used to speak their mind or express their feelings, in accordance to their basic principle: living together in harmony. They fear that by expressing their opinion or feelings, they could create possibilities of conflict and ruin the harmony in their circle so they refrain from doing that.

That is what they believe..... BUT!

But believe me, learn Nihongo and you will be surprised. The language of Japanese is a language filled with emotion and feelings and has deep meanings. But sometimes, for native Japanese, they got so used to speak their own language, they kind of missing the root and the true meaning of it. 

For example, I lived in an international dorm run by a Japanese family and they naturally taught us how to behave well in Japan. So basically at Japanese homes you say "Ittekimasu!" when you leave the house and the people who stay in the house will reply "Itterasshai!" to you. I was so thrilled about this fact, I can't stop talking about it at my first day in class. Then my sensei smiled and asked me if I knew what "ittekimasu" and "itterasshai" means. I answered yes, it means "I'm going out" and "see you later". My sensei smiled again and said that the true meaning was not that simple. When you say "Ittekimasu" as you leave your house, you were actually saying "I am going out now and I will be back." and then, "Itterasshai" means "Please come home safely, and come home soon. I will see you later when you're back."
Who says Japanese are not good in expressing their feelings? :)

Another example, at Narita International Airport in Tokyo, you can see another proof why Japanese are actually pretty sentimental. I had a chance to travel to South Korea and when I got back, I entered via international gate. The writings in the sign looked like this



The Japanese writings read Okaerinasai. And the exact translation of that is 100% different with the English one that is written below the Japanese one. Okaerinasai does not mean "welcome to Japan" in Japanese. Okaerinasai means "welcome back (home)". 

This tradition goes back to this:

In Japanese homes, when you're entering the house after going somewhere, you say "Tadaima", which translates to "I'm home." The people inside your house will then reply with "Okaerinasai". It is a custom you do only when you are going back to places you consider home, like your house or if you are a member of certain club at school, you will also say that upon entering your club's room. You don't say "tadaima" when you are entering other people's house and of course you dont expect them to greet you with "okaerinasai".
See, the Japanese writings in the sign above is written in hiragana, which gives you the idea that it is actually intended to be read by Japanese. While the government welcomes foreigners by saying welcome to Japan, they welcome their own kin by saying welcome back (home).
When I first came to Japan, I see the sign and my eyes were automatically set to the English writings since I didn't really speak or read Japanese that time. But by the time I went home from South Korea, my eyes set to the Japanese writings automatically, now that I do read and understand what I read. To me, as a foreigner, the hiragana writings of "okaerinasai" means, "Welcome back. Now you know Japan is your home too."

I miss this. I miss speaking Japanese in my daily conversation and finding deep meanings in it everyday. I miss practicing my Kanji by staring at a lot of ads inside the train trying to figure out how to read the Kanjis. I miss listening to people speak in Japanese. I miss listening to the jokes, not being able to understand the funny part and ask a Japanese to explain and laugh after that. I miss being able to improve my Japanese skill each day by only staying in Japan. I miss Nihongo so much, always and forever will be.

#3 The Trains

This. Is. KILLING. Me.
For those who are not aware of it, Japanese Railway System is UH-MA-ZING. You can literally go around cities by trains, you know. They are precisely and nicely arranged in a way you can always find a train to go anywhere at anytime. Seriously. Oh, here's a very handy site enlisting all the schedules of all trains. In case you read this and get inspired to go to Japan, this will help you!

Staying in Japan is seriously comfortable. It is easy to go anywhere. Bus stops are connected to train stations and the craziest thing is their EXACT time of arrival and departure, it almost got at a scary level, really. Living in Jakarta for my whole life, I am so used to people, buses, trains and everything being not on-time that I developed the habit of sparing at least 2 hours to go anywhere. I mean, for example I'm supposed to have a class at 10 am, then I will have to leave house by 8 am, oh, make it 7 am. It is a bit better now that the Commuter Line is already working with better schedule, but, still.

In Japan, I was so surprised seeing trains arrive exactly, for example, at 10.12 am and depart exactly at 10.13 am. They do it every single day for every trains, you know. So it is almost impossible to blame the train if you are running late somewhere. Because you can always predict at what time your train will be arriving at specific stations.

That, makes your life SO MUCH easier. I don't have to spare 2 hours!! Just check the schedule and you'll be safe.

My home station is Makuhari-Hongo Station. It is around 5-7 minutes by bicycle from my dorm and is the closest station from where I stay. I miss going to this eki (train station). I miss hearing the announcement

"Makuhari-Hongou...Makuhari-Hongou desu." or "Mamonaku, ichiban sen ni, Mitaka houmen yuki ga mairimasu. Abunai desu kara, kiiro sen made ni o sagari kudasai."

This was one of the very first phrases in Japanese I remember, because I hear it almost everyday. I remember I did not really catch the phrase at the first time (yes, my Japanese was THAT bad) and I would go to class unconsciously reciting and mumbling "mamonaku..ichiban sen ni something something what was that again..." and Takeda sensei would automatically finish the announcement for me and I would look up at him and laughed. I remember then he would always told me that I was doing great and someday I would be able to recite the train announcement all by myself.

And he was right.

I miss going to the train station and took the train to various places in Japan. I miss the quietness inside the train, and all the ads I could use to practice my Kanjis. I miss coming home to Makuhari-Hongou station feeling so happy that I'm only 5 minutes away to my room. I miss this, always and forever will be.

#4 Kanda University of International Studies

I am a very proud student of Bekka Program at KUIS. You can read the story of how I get that scholarship here, along with my first impression and early research of how KANDA and Chiba could possibly look like.
KANDA has so much things to offer, and so many good resources to keep you busy with academic life but still having fun nonetheless. I don't really know about the regular program the Japanese students are attending, except the fact that teachers often conduct a cross-over class where we will meet and interact with each other. But I do know about BEKKA Program and it is amazing.

I have super super dedicated teachers who apparently are exceptionally trained in teaching second tongue language to us, their students, and many of us were.. pathetic. Hahahaha..
Seriously, in my case I came to Japan being able to read Hiragana and Katakana without knowing what it means. Under their guidance, I could at the very least communicate daily with people and even got a 3 months job of translating Japanese once I came back here. To remember that I did not even know what a 'tanjoubi' means or the difference between 'tori niku' and 'buta niku', (that's chicken and pork, by the way) and see now that after a year I could develop my language skill this far... I think the uni along with every aspect of it (the program, the facilities, the teacher) deserve more than a "thank you".

There are 7 levels of Japanese classes at total in KANDA and they use a placement test before each semester begin to determine our levels. Me, obviously, was in level 1. My teachers use the mix of Japanese and English to explain things and when one of us was not that good with English either, he would download his student's native language's dictionary directly to his phone and use that to explain some difficult words.
The other teacher would call upon a senior student who spoke the same language with non-english speakers to assist  them.
Teachers would also always listen to us. They are very good with that, listening. They would correct our grammars every now and then but will always eager to listen, to advise and to encourage us to go on with our study.
They are one of the best teachers team I've ever encountered, considering that their students came from different parts of the world with different cultures but they still manage to teach everyone equally, nicely, perfectly. I heart them so much!

As for my uni, even though the other Japanese students kept saying that KANDA is small for a uni in Japan, I still think that... it's actually pretty big. I could probably put 3 or 4 Atma Jaya into KANDA's ground.
I miss walking in my school ground, seeing leaves changing colors, watching the other students play soccer, rehearsing their dance routines, playing rugby or simply chatting with friends. I miss coming to SALC, the English library which by the way is one of the coolest place ever in the whole KANDA universe. Hahahahaha..

I miss grabbing that delicious Creme Brulee and Cinnamon Rolls from Balcony Cafe for breakfast or during break between classes. I miss having lunch and indulge in some friend quality time with Rini at Lapaz Cafe and also miss the nice food.

I miss going to classes, learning Japanese and meet my teachers and my friends and learn together with them. I miss attending school festival, seeing all the foods from so many countries (because KANDA has a lot of language department, the student sort of selling food unique to their own'countries' depend on what language they're studying) and also watching all the culture festivals they held. I miss cheering for Akira and the rest of the soccer team when they had game at KANDA. I miss the euphoria and the chill we always feel after watching Step In (KANDA's dance club) members show their ability off in front of us.

I miss my Kyuudo and Kendou club! I miss My seniors and also the training. I miss their happy faces looking at us and encouraging us to train with them. I miss... I miss going to the clubs so bad.

I miss going to KAEDE lounge, the lounge in which international students would usually gather around for lunch. The lounge is mainly consisted of teacher's room and a big space with sofas and tables where we usually chat and, um, sleep, sometimes. I miss catching Jonne, and also Estela and Nayara, sometimes Marina and Jenni there at KAEDE. I miss our random lunch talk and the chaos the boys created over lunch break.

I miss building 7, place where I would always sit and reflect to almost everything. Building 7 is special because sometimes when I want to, or need to be alone I would climb to the top of the building where I have a nice view of the school and sit there on the green grass..just.. staying still there. It was also the place where Rini, Jenn, Achien and I rehearse our play for the farewell party. It was also the place where Rini, Jenn and I cried over the fact that we had to leave Japan.



It was rather dramatic, but the emotion was strong. The three of us sat there, around a week before our departure and we have this view of KANDA from above building 7. We recalled our memories, how far we have come, good and bad things that happened, funny moments and also our experiences. We talked about our job, we watch over the soccer team, the Kyuudo club and also some students who were there, down below in the green grass of soccer field. We hugged each other, thanking God we have each other and promised ourselves that we will go back here one day.

this is how building 7 looked like at night. At Christmas, we watched a classical music concert here. the lighting was amazing.

KANDA is very special to me. I miss KANDA, always and forever will be.


*note*: After that when we went back to the dorm this conversation happened with Akira. He was practicing soccer and apparently he got this nice view of three suspicious Indonesians on top of Building 7.

 Akira: "Um, by the way, what were you three doing up there in Building 7?"
Me and Rini: "You saw us??" 
Akira: "Yes. Clearly. What was that? you three rehearsing dancing move or what? Because all of you keep jumping and..."
Me and Rini: "........" HAHAHAHAHA. Did not realize we were that visible to everyone else. Sumimasen.

#5 Aki Chan

Presenting Aki-chan to you!!




uh-huh, she's my beloved bicycle. She is just perfect and amazing. She's been with me since the very first week of my stay in Japan. I bought her at Don Quixote (pronounced Don-Q-Ho-Tea in Japanese. Cute.) along with Rini's bicycle too. I named her Aki because I bought her in autumn and because the name "Aoi" (blue) is already taken by Rini. LOL.
I miss riding bicycle to, practically everywhere. To school, to the supermarket, to visit parks and to visit Jenn at her dorm. Even when I have to go by train I would still have to go by bike to the nearest train station.

I had this quite fun experience with Aki-chan. Estela and I went to hang out together in Tokyo and we parked our bikes at a place that is supposed to be the designated bicycle parking lot near Makuhari Hongou station. Little did we know that we had to pay 100 yen to park (we did not read kanji yet, seriously. we have no single idea about parking bicycle and paying for that). We went back to Chiba around 8 pm and..... our precious bicycles were... gone. MISSING! I was deeply worried because I know they had been towed by those guys at the "please-keep-the-city-in-order-and-clean" department. We searched and searched and searched and found our bicycles were in the darkest corner, along with some others and we have this green ticket saying that we have parked our bicycles at the wrong spot and they fine us 2,000 yen.

I dont know which feeling was the strongest. The relief because I still have my bicycle back, or the shock to pay 2,000 yen. It's around 200,000 rupiah by the way and it sucks to pay that much money only because you could not read the kanji. In the end we did not pay the fine though. But we messed up pretty bad with the dorm supervisor and she made us tell everybody about our mistake in attempt to embarrass us and so the other dorm members wont do the same mistake twice. She succeeded in her attempt to warn the other member but nowhere close to embarrassing me and Estela. Why, our fellow dorm members were supportive and they did not find it an embarrassing mistake. It was natural to do mistakes, and my dorm supervisor was just too selfish to admit that her dorm members consisted of people with low level of Japanese by the time we came to Japan that Fall semester.

By the time I have to go home to Indonesia, Aki has been accompanying me for almost a year. I had to let her go, I did not have other choice. I could've bring her back by shipping her but it would be no use because I can not use her here in Jakarta without injuring myself. Jakarta's street are not really bicycle-friendly. So I left her so my junior could use her and in hope that she will be a great company to Katrin, I let her go.

I miss riding my bicycle, always and forever will be.

#6 Wee Pee Day Care

I worked at Wee Pee Day Care for around 6 months as an English teacher. My main job was obviously teach English to young children aged 3 to 12. That was the happiest job I've ever done in my whole life. I talked with them, read them stories, played and dance and sing. I went to the parks with them and hanging out together, eating lunch and it was amazing. I dont even feel like I was working. I miss going to Wee Pee every week. I worked on Wednesday, perfectly in the middle of the week. I would always have this energy boost upon working there. Little children will came greet me in front of the door, hugged me and asked me to hold them tightly. They will jump happily and took my hand to start play with them.
The other teachers and staff will welcome me warmly, smiling and... I needed Wee Pee to keep me balanced with every other things I faced at school, at the dorm and they helped me fighting the homesick feeling I felt.
It was amazing, almost like finding a shelter after staying in Japan for a while. I got the job by the recommendation of one of my senior and I could not thank her enough for introducing me to Wee Pee day care.
Some weeks before my departure, it was Tanabata Festival in Japan. At Tanabata Day you will write a wish and hang it at a bamboo tree. I came in to Wee Pee that day and Hide sensei was grinning at me, as usual, and hand me this yellow paper. He said "Write a wish. It maybe works, you know." 

With all my heart, I wished for some more time to spend with Wee Pee kids and teachers.

Maasa Sensei, Hide Sense, Yuko Sensei, I really miss you guys. I miss the children, I miss working there.
On my last day at Wee Pee, they gave me such a pleasant surprise. They gathered up the children and everyone said thank you in English. Then they handed me this photo frame that could record voices. (Japanese stuff, dont get too surprised with those kind of thing. Japan got the cutest stuff ever! Hahahahha)
They have recorded the voices of the children and the teachers too, saying, "Thanks Ria, we will miss you."
Inside the photo frame were two pieces of photographs, of me and the children.
You can not believe how warm it makes me. I was all teary and Maasa sensei hugged me. I miss her, too much. And then Hide sensei was like "noooo don't cry!!" Hahahaha. I really miss his face and the way he lead the team. He is amazing.
On my last day in Japan, I visited Wee Pee for one last time. Hide sensei and Maasa sensei talked a lot to me, giving me advices, patting my back and hug me once again. They said that it will come a day when I will be back. That day, probably it will not be them who run Wee Pee anymore but that one thing I should believe is that Wee Pee would stay the same, Wee Pee would still welcome me home.
I dont know how it will be the same without them, but I do know that Wee Pee was one of my happiest place in Japan.

I miss that, always and forever will be.

And last, but not least,

#7 Staying in the Dorm

I miss staying in the dorm. Seriously. I might not always be in the good mood at the dorm and there were always problems and things happened, but never did I regret my stay at Bekka Ryou. I miss walking home and finding faces that were always glad greeting me "okaerinasai". I miss cooking at the kitchen or just hanging out at Jenni or Eden or Estela or Rini's room. I miss hiding in my room when I wanted to be alone. I miss the birthday parties we threw at the dorm and always miss our girls only movie nights. Word only would not be enough this time. Because that place, that building, with the people inside hold my memories, my gratefulness, my happiness, my heart.

I have never posted any picture of my dorm before. Now probably gonna be the right time. This is the common room. Tables on your right are internet corner, up to 8 people can use internet at the same time, and we are basically not allowed to have internet in our own room. On your left are the dining tables, we would always gather there for parties, playing cards, or simply chit chatting. The door on the left lead to the stairs to girls room and the corridor to boys room. Door in front of you lead to the kitchen.





The picture on your right shows part of the common room. That yellow closet is the place where we put our shoes and sandals. The curtain covered the front door, the main door we use to come in or get out of the dorm everyday. here everyone would yell "tadaima!!" and "ittekimaaasu!" everyday.
The picture below is the front door. Rini took this picture for me not long after we arrived at the dorm.





My room was the 207. My neighbor was Estela at 206. It was the third largest room in the dorm. I took this picture and yeah it was a bit untidy but... well.


That thing that looked like a computer is actually a television. And the CJ7 character's doll on top of it act as an earthquake warning for me. Too often it will fell down with loud voice that would normally catch my attention. I like the room because I got two pair of windows (the other only got 1 pair) and I got a closet too for my clothes. I miss my room. :)

There are a lot of things I miss about Japan, really. I miss my friends mostly, who are by the way, literally scattered around the world. I only hope that my hands would be big enough to hug each of them tonight. All of us shared a moment in life that we will never forget. That's a big deal, and that makes them precious.